Today

After sleeping for 13 hrs straight, I ought to have been refreshed in the morning. I can never concentrate on one thing. There are always some background process(es) working in my head while I do something. So as I started on my Software Engineering lecture notes( a module which I'm just not satisfied with btw) the after effect of the previous day's events were still fresh in my head.

3rd yr in college, I thought that it would be my best year. It certainly didn't start on a good note. One of my greatest flaws is that I am never satisfied with thing. 'Never' is too harsh. I think it just takes me a long time to understand that what I had done, was the best I could have done given the circumstances of course. But this again conflicts with my ingrained belief that 'man is capable of doing great things'. Mind you, great may not apply literally. Managing to lead a simple life itself is a great task in itself. Why is it that at times, after achieving something we tend to think that we could have done better? Why couldn't we have done better in the first place? Was it the circumstances which prevented us from doing so ? You weren't able to perform well because you had a cold ?
We tend to have a reason to justify all our follies. I have always hoped that man would have infinite will. Unfortunately we dont. That's why we prioritize and specialize. But nonetheless, I have always had an irrational belief in the power of infinite and the dream to achieve it. I guess that is the only way man will know his potential.

Anyways, I went to have lunch after managing to read a lecture. I slept immediately after that. Sleeping, haha ...I sleep when I'm 1) tired 2) pensive. Today afternoon I slept due to the latter. I woke up with vigour and read up on signal processing.

Went for workout in the evening . Had different one today. Did a sprint workout, sprint, break, sprint, break...Now my legs are killing me,this on top of a leg workout 2 days before. Exercise is heavenly I would say. I am never as clear minded and serene after a workout. I wish(again) I had realised it in school. I had a bad conception back then that 'Man was made to work'. Post industrialised world, lots of leisure time. This semester I've realised that I can squeeze more work in, if I want.

The problem is that, I need to find that passion. That purpose. I know I will. Not that it's about time, but I am mentally prepared to handle that purpose. Till then I would just like to enjoy the remaining time in college and spend time with friends.

Dont underestimate the power of simplicity.