Why am I bothered when you're around,
Why am I bothered when you're not,
There are reasons why,
But you manage to drown them all.
You breeze in like a Zephyr,
There you are all in a cursory glance,
It's hardly a moment that you stay,
Then you go but never leave and I'm left in a quandary.
Never really awake, never really asleep.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
The extra mile
I remember something important my teacher said when i was in middle school(his name was Pope). He told us to give a 110 percent in whatever we do. Aim higher than what you want to achieve. Run 12k if you want to get exceptional at 10k. That kind of consistency is tough to maintain for whatever you do. But if you can achieve that then you can be a master.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Thoughts on the mind
Most of the stuff below might seem quite evident but if we really take note, things can improve a lot. I have always believed in nurture over nature.
It is not directly possible to access our unconscious minds. There can be a mismatch between the conscious and unconscious mind. You might consciously not like someone but unconsciously you might have feelings. You tend to repress these feelings because of some fears, like straying away from certain goals.
You might consciously want to be someone but inside you might be different. TO change yourself inside, you need to start with the outside.
Change your behavior.
If you want to do good, start doing good. Appear, to be.
We acquire virtues by first having them put them into action... we become just by the practice of just actions, self controlled by exercising self control, and courageous by performing acts of courage. Aristotle.
It is not directly possible to access our unconscious minds. There can be a mismatch between the conscious and unconscious mind. You might consciously not like someone but unconsciously you might have feelings. You tend to repress these feelings because of some fears, like straying away from certain goals.
You might consciously want to be someone but inside you might be different. TO change yourself inside, you need to start with the outside.
Change your behavior.
If you want to do good, start doing good. Appear, to be.
We acquire virtues by first having them put them into action... we become just by the practice of just actions, self controlled by exercising self control, and courageous by performing acts of courage. Aristotle.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Similarity & Difference
Today I realized that it is way tougher to deal with the self of others rather than your self.People go to great lengths to view the world in a way that facilitates their well being. They just do not want to let go of their rigidity. No way of convincing them.It's natural to do so. Is it ? If you have an aim, you make efforts to reach it. It's a safe path with no deviations. You have your own trusted circle. Your own group. Others are seen as different.
I guess that is the prime causation of pain. Pain for the other, a lack of solace for you. When you look at the other, perceive him as someone similar to you. Try. He definitely won't be the same! But even if you manage to find an iota of your reflection in him, that will foster an association. Don't justify the differences by rationalizing.A dose of self deception can be a good but it is also in your interest to be accurate to yourself.
Easier said than done though. From childhood itself, we are told who we are as a group and this influences our individuality. Along the way without our knowing even why, a demarcation develops between us and the other. We are told to follow certain rules to keep the other from crossing that demarcation. Not many have the time nor the effort to think of why they are following certain standards.
Basically, what i want to say is to loosen your rigidity,give some slack to the other guy. You don;t even know how similar he is to you. And you will never know unless you set out thinking that he is different from you.
I guess that is the prime causation of pain. Pain for the other, a lack of solace for you. When you look at the other, perceive him as someone similar to you. Try. He definitely won't be the same! But even if you manage to find an iota of your reflection in him, that will foster an association. Don't justify the differences by rationalizing.A dose of self deception can be a good but it is also in your interest to be accurate to yourself.
Easier said than done though. From childhood itself, we are told who we are as a group and this influences our individuality. Along the way without our knowing even why, a demarcation develops between us and the other. We are told to follow certain rules to keep the other from crossing that demarcation. Not many have the time nor the effort to think of why they are following certain standards.
Basically, what i want to say is to loosen your rigidity,give some slack to the other guy. You don;t even know how similar he is to you. And you will never know unless you set out thinking that he is different from you.
Monday, November 17, 2008
About Preventing and Curing
Prevention is better than cure. Definitely.
Life allows you to make mistakes. At times, you want to make these mistakes too. And you tend to blame it on human nature.Nature yes, but nurture more.
For the last 6-8 months I've been letting go of life. And it's not that I was not aware of this fact. In trying to search for an external impetus, I missed myself. Ofcourse, there is nothing wrong is looking for something outside of yourself. I have brushed with several people who sort of remind you to 'get on track' and all the other hopeful tales. These people need not even speak, they just have to be there to inspire. Unfortunately, like I said, these were just brushes. The only link which I have been able to maintain is with Bhai. I am sure that this is not so. If I give more effort, I'm sure I'll be able to find others like Bhai. Some I guess might already be beside me. People miss you, and you miss people; which is completely unfortunate as apart from you, the world loses out.
There is no need to feel bad.It is just a process. You must enjoy the way it unfolds. Am I speaking to myself ? Or am I speaking to you ? Anyway,remember, not to fool yourself. As long as you are aware of what is happening and why, it is ok. The problem comes even after awareness, you do not try to make amends. You can't afford to get apathetic with your own life. I will have to fight my own apathy.
Self derision is a waste. It solves nothing. So do not blame unnecessarily. If you do something, anything, just add an essence of love to it. Things aren't so bad you know. For me, I am finding out that reality way better than what I had imagined it in my head. I'm glad I am out of this imagined land.
Prevention is better than cure. The more you allow life to go haywire, the more it will. If you fail, approach People. If you are lucky, one Person is all you might need to help you spring back.
Life allows you to make mistakes. At times, you want to make these mistakes too. And you tend to blame it on human nature.Nature yes, but nurture more.
For the last 6-8 months I've been letting go of life. And it's not that I was not aware of this fact. In trying to search for an external impetus, I missed myself. Ofcourse, there is nothing wrong is looking for something outside of yourself. I have brushed with several people who sort of remind you to 'get on track' and all the other hopeful tales. These people need not even speak, they just have to be there to inspire. Unfortunately, like I said, these were just brushes. The only link which I have been able to maintain is with Bhai. I am sure that this is not so. If I give more effort, I'm sure I'll be able to find others like Bhai. Some I guess might already be beside me. People miss you, and you miss people; which is completely unfortunate as apart from you, the world loses out.
There is no need to feel bad.It is just a process. You must enjoy the way it unfolds. Am I speaking to myself ? Or am I speaking to you ? Anyway,remember, not to fool yourself. As long as you are aware of what is happening and why, it is ok. The problem comes even after awareness, you do not try to make amends. You can't afford to get apathetic with your own life. I will have to fight my own apathy.
Self derision is a waste. It solves nothing. So do not blame unnecessarily. If you do something, anything, just add an essence of love to it. Things aren't so bad you know. For me, I am finding out that reality way better than what I had imagined it in my head. I'm glad I am out of this imagined land.
Prevention is better than cure. The more you allow life to go haywire, the more it will. If you fail, approach People. If you are lucky, one Person is all you might need to help you spring back.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Horizon
Oh yes, I think I have finally made up my mind. God is an illusion. Not the spiritual God, but the religious one. Well, so that's done.
There is one more thought which I have been pondered over for a long time. It is the notion of competition. The implicit need to do better than the rest. The frictions which arise due to this need, between me and others, and within myself too. Every moment of life spent, one is trying to bridge the gap. It is the gap between me and others. Too much time is spent in assessing how different we are from the rest. If a fraction of this time were to be spent in seeing how similar we are to each other, then there would simply be more happiness around us. Who decides if there is a gap between me and you.
Are you better looking than me? Are you more studioues than me? Success, Power, Religion, Poverty ... Distinctions plague our day to day living. Strangers and friends, friends and foes, trust and deceit ... These dipoles will not cease to exist, not only in our minds but also in the actions we perform, unless we stop competing. We are all chiselling off each other (heard this somewhere)
Of course, I cannot stop with just accepting my present conditions. Need to do what the heart of hearts says. A mind set needs to be changed. Choice needs to be made.
Once that is done, everything else ensues.
There is one more thought which I have been pondered over for a long time. It is the notion of competition. The implicit need to do better than the rest. The frictions which arise due to this need, between me and others, and within myself too. Every moment of life spent, one is trying to bridge the gap. It is the gap between me and others. Too much time is spent in assessing how different we are from the rest. If a fraction of this time were to be spent in seeing how similar we are to each other, then there would simply be more happiness around us. Who decides if there is a gap between me and you.
Are you better looking than me? Are you more studioues than me? Success, Power, Religion, Poverty ... Distinctions plague our day to day living. Strangers and friends, friends and foes, trust and deceit ... These dipoles will not cease to exist, not only in our minds but also in the actions we perform, unless we stop competing. We are all chiselling off each other (heard this somewhere)
Of course, I cannot stop with just accepting my present conditions. Need to do what the heart of hearts says. A mind set needs to be changed. Choice needs to be made.
Once that is done, everything else ensues.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
She and Mastery
Who could she be, who would have the patience to understand me,
She would notice me through this haze,
Do I search for her ? Or, does she ?
The pain relieved if ever we happen to meet.
It is for her to see,
That the wind does not whisper when I am beside her,
New found vigour from where I do not know,
Lets me wish for a future and the strength to make it come true.
Oh, I have pondered too much,
A labyrinth I have created and have lost myself in,
Not completely though I say, For the key to the door I have unlocked,
Is with me and I must lock it back again.
Hope and despair undulate irrationally,
In both our stories am I able to realise the follies,
Foolish Consistency I cannot dwell in anymore,
Life has been overlooked in all this monotony.
It's a place called the Heart of hearts,
Where you cannot reason nor can you cheat,
Look there if you want to truly know what you want to achieve,
For me it is Mastery that I see.
In order to catch a glimpse of it,
I must gather All of Me,
And only when that is done,
I must look forward to thee.
There is no other way but to Start anyhow,
Never have I intrigued myself this way,
But just too compelling is the thought of change,
To leave one stranded gaping through a single window pane.
Clarity dawns, The moment ago seems crazy,
She can hop in along the way,
To guide us through the final turns,
On this journey towards Mastery.
She would notice me through this haze,
Do I search for her ? Or, does she ?
The pain relieved if ever we happen to meet.
It is for her to see,
That the wind does not whisper when I am beside her,
New found vigour from where I do not know,
Lets me wish for a future and the strength to make it come true.
Oh, I have pondered too much,
A labyrinth I have created and have lost myself in,
Not completely though I say, For the key to the door I have unlocked,
Is with me and I must lock it back again.
Hope and despair undulate irrationally,
In both our stories am I able to realise the follies,
Foolish Consistency I cannot dwell in anymore,
Life has been overlooked in all this monotony.
It's a place called the Heart of hearts,
Where you cannot reason nor can you cheat,
Look there if you want to truly know what you want to achieve,
For me it is Mastery that I see.
In order to catch a glimpse of it,
I must gather All of Me,
And only when that is done,
I must look forward to thee.
There is no other way but to Start anyhow,
Never have I intrigued myself this way,
But just too compelling is the thought of change,
To leave one stranded gaping through a single window pane.
Clarity dawns, The moment ago seems crazy,
She can hop in along the way,
To guide us through the final turns,
On this journey towards Mastery.
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